New Year's

To make resolutions,
To decide to change,
You have to know
What you want
So you can decide who to be.
"Although how can you know
Who you are till you know
What you want, which you don't?"
So how do you pick?
How do you pry up
Pieces to polish and shine
So you can be a better you?
And do you even want to be
A better you?

Merry Christmas
And may you find such
Joy in sparkling lights
And warm toes
As love overflows
From the world to you.

The ice lies
Wrapped about the branches
And the strands of grass
As the sun shines
Making it all sparkle
Like a polymorphic prism.

I'm catching glimpses,
Snapshots,
Of the life my family leads.
Because I am gone,
Now I walk in the door in winter
And the tree is already decorated
And I leave before it's fully gone.
I don't have my own life,
I'm not that far removed,
I'm in this half-limbo
Of childhood and something else.
I think.

The Last Study Session

I lay on the study room floor,
Every inch of me screaming "no more,"
When I heard the tell-tale signs of someone approaching.

I expected words of jest,
Or encouragement to do my best,
But I was covered in a blanket so fine
I could recover lost peace of mind.

Say something

The snow falls and falls
In a graceful wave of winter.
It's fast movements still bestow
An aura of peace to the trees.

I'm giving up on you.

 
I'm only sorry
That I'm experiencing it alone.

A Message to College-Me and -You

Breathe,
Just breathe.
Remember how you've studied?
Remember all the notes you took?
You will succeed.
You know this.
Why be terrified you will not?
You have all these allies,
Now use them.
Do not be afraid,
For all who matter
Are on your side.
And that includes
Every professor grading your finals this week.