I flew out
So swiftly
So final
And yet I want
To crawl back,
Limping,
Bleeding,
Crying,
For what reasons
I don't know.

Because I can't
Actually be that cruel?
Because I just
Can't sleep
And for so long
You were my refuge?
Are my refuge?

Did I destroy that
In my own pain
That I can't even
Understand?

I'm sorry.
And I'm sorry
That I will sit here
Doing nothing but
Waiting
Until I think you have
Gone yourself.

And then,
I return.
But there is nothing there.
And so the loneliness
And guilt crush in.