Pretador.

Teeth bared.
Claws extended.
A strange dance that will end
Only when one or both of us
Is dead.
So snarl your best,
Growl your lowest.
You only get one audition.

Diving Down the Highway

She roars at the press of a pedal,
Humming,
Vibrating beneath my hands,
Good Lord,
I love to drive.
This car,
this little zoomer Mazda,
is amazing.
Small and fast,
I feel untouchable,
Like the world is mine,
I can put my foot on the gas
And drive anywhere.
Nothing can stop me.

But then I get home.
Put her in park.
Turn off the engine.
And the magic is gone.
I'm not from L.A. anymore.
I'm now suburbia.

So bored.
So tired.
School.
I am wasting time!
Making goals,
I have goals.
Why should I share them with you?

Two Days Gone

Two days gone.
Tow days missed.
Undocumented.
I am sorry.

How could I have hoped?
How could I let myself believe that I
Could be something more than a chorus girl?
I'm excited,
Though to be a wolf.
I wish that I could have been named,
Important,
A part with a name,
Set apart from the chorus.
Perhaps I shall be Pack Leader?

I made a mistake yesterday.
A grave one.
I let many people down.
I cried.
I was sick,
And in more ways than one.

The slope is slippery.
Hold on to God,
Else you will find yourself far down the hill.

How Wonderful

I am dreaming,
dreaming to stay alive.
Dreaming to find some way out,
out of this mess I've made.
I am falling,
falling hard.
Falling into a place that's dark,
dark like night.

But Your light shines,
shines in all Darkness,
in all Sorrow.
And all that fall are caught,
all that stumble are helped,
all that cry are comforted.

How wonderful to have a Father.

The Life I live

The life I live
is a crazy life.
Of dreams,
of Laughs,
Of dreams,
No song unsung.

It has its ups,
and its downs.
It's seven hour schooldays,
and its fourteen hour school days.

But to sit and watch,
for four hours,
Auditions for our musical
(which means cute guys,
that can sing,
and have good character,
AND CAN SING!)
Is something like Heaven.
Memories,
Quotes,
That I will recall for a lifetime.

Auditions

I am so excited!
So thrilled!
Full of anticipation,
And fear.
Another audition.
Another chance to ride higher than the stars
Or fall even farther.
If only there was
A second song...

The End

The end
draws ever near.
Always.
Something is always begining,
always ending.
Who can say where the start of one life is
and the end?

Summer Job

Ugh.
It's at the point
Where I am ready to quit.
To say:
"Ta ta!"
to the place that gives me
a paycheck.
To the place that restricts my freedom,
that steals my time.

Weekly Memo:
Summer's over.
It's time to go.

The money has stopped being worth
the loss of time.

Bonding

Tired,
so tired.
But happy,
Elated,
Joyful.

A day
Full of friends,
no homework,
no school,
no work.
Just people
who are crazy like me,
crazy about music,
about dancing.

Singing,
dancing,
playing games,
wading in a lake,
with whom else,
but some of you dearest friends,
would you share such a time?

Hello

SCHOOL!
New day,
new year,
new people,
Friends,
faces.
"OMG!
I haven't seen you in forever!"
"Come sit at my table!"

Hello.

Dream

I dreamed a dream once.
Once upon a silver moon.
It's only a paper moon.

I can't think straight.
Must. Sleep.

I dreamed a dream last night.

Standing at the Threshold

I am standing at the threshold.
Tomorrow shall usher in my junior year,
I am halfway done
With high school.
I can go to prom.
I can be on JCB.
I have more chances in theatrical production.
(A little bit more hope.
Just a tad.)
Dreams are coming closer,
Coming into view.
I am realizing my faults,
And how to let God fix them.

A little poem written at midnight
Can say a lot.
Don't you think?

I Cried Today

I cried today.
It was a good,
ten minute cry
that needed to happen.
You see,
I lost my glasses.
Expensive,
one-of-a-kind,
several hundred dollar glasses.
And I can't find them.
I've asked God to deliver them to me.
He has yet to say:
"Yes."

So I will wait.
And cry.
Because I lose everything.
I'd lose my head if it wasn't screwed on.

I cried today
because I could not see
the benifit to the Kingdom
a scatterbrained idiot
could bring.

I cried today
because God still loves
and wants that girl in His Kingdom.

summer is fading

Summer is fading.
Each day ends cooler,
ends darker.
The sunset comes,
Night falls,
and the moon and stars come out to play
earlier and earlier each time.
So gather up your school things,
have one last fling with the pool.
Have one last barbeque,
and one last picnic.
Autumn will fall soon.

How did it get this late?
How did I miss the clock?
Night has fallen,
Sleep is callin',
And I should be in bed.

A sleepover

A sleepover,
a sleepover,
a day full of friends,
To my blog,
left un-posted,
to you I give amends.

Remember

Remember.
Sounds,
voices,
songs.
"Christmas bells are ringing, somewhere else..."
People.
Faces,
Sights,
"Back on the street, where I met my sweet..."
Touch,
wood,
textures,
"We'll pack up all our junk and fly so far away..."
Smells,
paint,
deodorant,
"Would you light my candle?"
Tastes,
sugar,
friendship,
"When the notes are sour..."

Flashes of the senses,
memories seared on my mind
that come back to haunt me
in the middle of the night.
Dreams of a production
long over,
dreams of a family
seperated by summer,
and graduations.

I remember,
for Finale B,
the chorus,
offstage,
would join in.
That was the director's idea,
that there would be a massive,
unseen choir backing up the mains.
And us,
the techies,
who also knew the whole play by heart,
joined in more often than not.

"Life goes on
But I'm gone.
For I'd die
Without you!"

*Happy Dance*

Poetry
Songs,
I love finding references.
Sometimes I don't see them,
and sometimes I do.
I enjoy thinking I'm smart.

Into the Inferno

Oh.
My.
Gosh.
This game is so annoying!
I am missing the days
when we didn't have a Wii.
I have done everything
That needs to be done.
AUGH!
Why can't we move on!

Sleepover

Listening
to my sister
and her friends,
I love it.
The laughter,
the fun,
I am happy myself.

Tired

Tired,
tired,
so tired.
Exhastion drags at every movement,
fatigue makes my steps heavy.
Oh why did I stay up late to read?
Why?
The book was great,
but as my mind quickly flees insanity,
I am missing sleep.